Trust. Merriam-Webster defines trust as, “to place confidence in; belief that someone or something is reliable, good, honest, effective, etc.”

Trust should be something you have in people you love or you really care about. For some people trust is easy. They can let people into their lives because their trust has never been broken by someone or by God. This can be both good and bad. That means their trust can be broken in the blink of an eye. However, for me, trust has already been broken.

I’ve lost some people who I’ve really cared about in the past because of my trust issues. And after I let them slip away, I always find myself saying, what if? Or, did I do the right thing? What if I would’ve given that person a shot, would my life be better? Or is it a good thing I did what I did?

State wrestling. Saturday, February 16, 2019. My heart had never dropped so fast. From the bottom of the stairs, my mom’s friend yelled my name from across the room and told me my brother had a seizure and my mom was going to Des Moines. My heart was racing as I ran up the stairs to see if my mom wanted me to go with her, but she said I needed to stay home with my friends. She drove through a snowstorm while I sat and tried to process. I tried texting a friend at the wrestling meet with my brother and no one would respond. This terrified me even more. My body felt like it had shut down. I broke into tears not knowing how he was or his condition. It was hard for me to breathe at any thought of losing him.

In that moment, the phrase, “everything happens for a reason” hit me the hardest. I had to trust that my brother, my best friend, someone I really loved, was going to be okay and that all those with him were going to look after him while my mom was on her way.

I repeated this phrase to myself more than once because I knew I needed to know that everything was going to be okay.

I’ve learned I have to start putting my life in drive and let it take me wherever I’m supposed to go. Because wherever that is, that’s where God intended me to be. It was hard to realize in that moment and others, but God puts everyone and everything in your life for a reason. Don’t take advantage of the people you have or the life you were given. TRUST in what is to come and where you will go next. And remember, EVERYTHING happens for a reason.